Re: What saddened you today?
Posted: Thu Apr 04, 2013 10:54 am
The fact I've wasted most of the past few years looking after my Grandma after High School and didn't do much with my life except work at a detail shop with my Dad for a couple of months, then getting a job cleaning up a Church and Recreational Center with my aunt, big brother, and other people for about 2 and a half years, then doing nothing up till now. Looking back at it now, all that time wasted could've been used to finding another job, or going to college back then, but no, I wasted most of it looking after my Grandma and playing Video Games which were at the time the only thing to keep me sane. Well nowadays my Grandma's mind is slipping more and more, and she wants to argue over stupid stuff, worrying about small things and things that need not be worried about, saying we're all dummies for not doing what she tells us to do, calling me a devil for the way I act around her and I've never hit this woman, or done any bodily harm to her, and she constantly tries to do things she should very well know she can no longer do anymore since she had her right leg amputated. 
and did I ever mention the sleepless nights we have to endure when she acts crazy at night like a banshee yelling to call the police and thinking it's breakfast time around oh I dunno around 2:00 or 4:00 at night!!! 
Right now I've had enough of it, I'm not gonna waste my life doing this anymore damn it! I'm looking at a college site to see what interests me, and what kind of courses I can take, I need to find myself a future and make it a reality, because if this keeps up I ain't gonna have a future, doing the same thing over and over each day, and to tell you the truth, my hair is turning gray because of it all, AIYA!!! 
I literally got gray hairs in my head at the age of 26, and it scares me, this shouldn't be happening to me! 
I could go on with this but I think you get the picture. Anyways that's all for now, I'm getting back to this site and look at these various fields of degrees, have a glorious day. And if you've had the patience to read all of this, you deserve cool points!
